As I reflect upon my AEDP journey, two words come to mind; perseverance and wonder.
When I heard Diana Fosha’s lecture “Healing Attachment Trauma with Attachment”, at PSYBC (NYC) lecture series, November, 2009, and attended AEDP Institute Conference February 2010, I knew I needed to learn about AEDP. It was about Diana standing at the podium, arms outstretched describing an over-arching phenomena. It was the content such as, “we are wired for growth and healing…we are shaped by a deep desire to be known, seen, recognized…not just bundles of pathology…” It was Diana’s smart, laser focused, emotional, explicit, caring and transformational tape. It was about the welcoming and heart felt approach to serious work I witnessed at the AEDP conference. I felt healed and transformed, just watching and showing up. AEDP took my social work values and theoretical stance to new heights. My heart, voice and nature were spoken to.
Finally, in May 2013, with family responsibilities loosening and a new hip, I began a serious AEDP journey and took the Immersion Course with Diana in NYC. By July, I was in supervision with Natasha Prenn. Followed by Essential Skills, I, II and III and Core Training with Jeanne Newhouse. Wow, big breath, slow down, take it in.I am forever changed and grateful professionally and personally.
I’m deeply appreciative of my clients who continue to accompany me on this journey of growth and continued learning. Permission to tape their sessions and share those sessions with colleagues takes courage and trust.
This way of working has softened what I call the rough psychoanalytic edges of transference/countertransference. Terms which at times distanced me from myself and clients.
I find a new vitality in my work, better ways of saying difficult things, my presence in the treatment room feels stronger and better boundaries emerge with softness.